All this time, I’ve been lying to myself about everything.
Every single thing.
What I want, where I want to be, who I want to be with, why I’m here…
what I believe in…
Everything is a lie… I wonder how did I got this far…
Deceiving people all the way…
I’m nothing but a liar… Not only to people I care mostly,
but also to myself…
Why is it in the first place I didn’t argue about all these things in front of me?
Why did I just let things happened without even trying to stop them?
Why did I just let myself to bear all these faults as if I’m the only one to blame?
… or is it because it is my fault to begin with?
I tried so hard to resist…
but it seems everything had already consumed me.
I want to run away from here…
But I can’t just find the key to unlock this gate of loneliness…
Even though everything looks so beautiful…
A part of me had already overwhelmed by this fake happiness…
but I can still sense another part of me, even though it’s just a small part… that yearning for someone to pull myself away…
I want to go somewhere I truly belong…
Is there any place I can go?
Is it even exist?
I want to go back to my past… and change my destiny…
So I wouldn’t end up like this…
No… there’s no way I can do that…
Should I wait for something to happen? Before I can finally freed myself from here?
..or shouldn’t I?
Save me… from myself…
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